I’ve been following a wonderful blog by a young lady named Hannah Brencher and this week she said some that clicked in my mind:
Trust me, I have wasted time. I have a wasted a lot of time on the things of life that don’t actually matter. I’ve eaten pride like casserole. I’ve loved myself and hated myself a little too much. I should have been studying or cooking or writing or creating but instead I was scrolling through social media accounts to see who had gotten ahead of me. My heart was being vandalized by bitterness, jealousy, and resentment but it was too dark to call them out by name.
I have wrestled to get off the phone. I have found watching the lives of other people to be easier than facing my own junk. But no one is going to clear out your own emptiness. When your dreams go unfulfilled because you didn’t start the work, the world won’t even know how to be heartbroken by the loss of things that would have made them better people. That’s the thing about the things you don’t do: you carry the loss.
You decide to either follow after what matters most to you or you follow other people. You either build people up or tear them down in your heart because you think they’re getting what you deserved and wanted. You build a Hunger Games arena in your brain and, as a result, you can’t stop hiding in the trees.
I don’t want to hear God say, “You cared more about following people than me. You were supposed to feed the others, not follow them.”
I’ve found myself doing the same thing. I get jealous of those who have walked the path of success while I scroll on Facebook or waste time watching a youtube video. I see my life clock ticking away and I’m still scrolling on FB while others are writing their fifth book series. My problem? Laziness. I’m not sure why, but I have a problem with being lazy. It’s so more entertaining to scroll over FB or waste time on youtube. Time is so precious and yet it slips away from me before I see it. I know I can write, I know I’m on the right path and still, I take advantage of what God has given me. So it is right to do so? Nope. I think for me, it’s my biggest sin. To waste what God has given me. To take His blessings and toss them onto the garbage heap because I want to watch Youtube or see what someone is doing today.
Jesus gave a wonderful parable in Matthew 25:14-30
The Parable of the Talents
14 “For it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants[a] and entrusted to them his property. 15 To one he gave five talents,[b] to another two, to another one, to each according to his ability. Then he went away. 16 He who had received the five talents went at once and traded with them, and he made five talents more. 17 So also he who had the two talents made two talents more. 18 But he who had received the one talent went and dug in the ground and hid his master’s money. 19 Now after a long time the master of those servants came and settled accounts with them. 20 And he who had received the five talents came forward, bringing five talents more, saying, ‘Master, you delivered to me five talents; here I have made five talents more.’ 21 His master said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant.[c] You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your master.’ 22 And he also who had the two talents came forward, saying, ‘Master, you delivered to me two talents; here I have made two talents more.’ 23 His master said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant. You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your master.’ 24 He also who had received the one talent came forward, saying, ‘Master, I knew you to be a hard man, reaping where you did not sow, and gathering where you scattered no seed, 25 so I was afraid, and I went and hid your talent in the ground. Here you have what is yours.’ 26 But his master answered him, ‘You wicked and slothful servant! You knew that I reap where I have not sown and gather where I scattered no seed? 27 Then you ought to have invested my money with the bankers, and at my coming I should have received what was my own with interest. 28 So take the talent from him and give it to him who has the ten talents. 29 For to everyone who has will more be given, and he will have an abundance. But from the one who has not, even what he has will be taken away. 30 And cast the worthless servant into the outer darkness. In that placethere will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’
Now I know God won’t toss me away, I trust Him, but I have to question. Do I really want to hand over to God a few pennies from what He gave to me because I was being lazy? Wouldn’t I rather hand Him a double portion of what He gave me? Well, yeah!!
So the what’s the solution? Get off Social Media, Kim!! I want to do what He has called me to do and do the best that I can. So I guess laziness is now out the door. Laziness is a cruel master that demands all your time, effort and resources. It tells you what you can and can’t do and it steals so much from you or shall I say, from me. So I guess the time has come when I need to wave bye-bye to that former master Laziness and get a going. I don’t want to hand my God my few pennies knowing I could have handed Him an million dollars.